Anonymous Person
Bullying Survivor
Male | Los Angeles, CA   United States
The Loser
Bullying Type: Physical / Emotional
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Hello first of all I am going to start off saying I am a Male near my late teenage years and currently residing in Southern California. I will keep my identity anonymous I feel that it is not very important but the issues I faced. At the age of 9 I had moved from my hometown in to a new city I wasn't very excited to leave because I was in the city I loved. I felt like I was leaving my close friends. I was very nervous entering a new city. Few weeks had passed by, I was what you call a "loner". I seen a crowd of kids playing basketball outside so I decided to join because I grew up being social active kid. Little did I know I walked up to the wrong crowd. As days went by I realized the people I was involved with were "Gangsters" I did not know much but I decided to act just like them. At the age of 10 I was considered a gang member I was drinking beers,smoking weed,cigarettes,doing meth and committing robberies. I started to get attached to a guy "friend" or what some might call a crime partner. Before I knew it he dr*gged me up I was on meth,high and drunk when it all began. I started to get ****d by this boy who was 4 years older than me. Keep in mind I was only 10 years old. It continued on for maybe about a year. I was so lost and confused so I never spoke up about it. This was the cause of my dr*gs addiction for the past 9 years of my life. At this young age I wanted to escape reality I was doing everything I can lay my hands on. My main addictions involved weed,beer,cigarettes,meth,c*ke,crack,heroin and ecstasy. At the age of 12 I was put on probation for possession of marijuana packaged for sale and paraphernalia. After I was on probation I felt like a bad ass so I then decided to speak up on my situation to the offender. I started to refuse the sex that is when the bullying started to begin he started being violent. I would fight him for my life and dignity. I then started to hang out with other gang members to start getting my fame and respect. We started to keep our distance when I turned 13 he got his first arrest. This kept my safe for that moment. The more I got involved in crime the more I started to enjoy it. It was a great thrill it was a new high for me. When I was around the age of 15 he was released from jail the first thing that happened was we hung out and got drunk and were under the influence of methamphetamine. He then tried to take advantage of me and I was so out of it that I i told him if he ever tried to do what he did to me again that I would k*ll him. Luckily for me I had a knife he threatened to k*ll me with a 9mm gun at the moment. I responded you don't have the f*cking balls to do it your a bit*h. He then flipped and socked my across the face. After that nothing happened. He said if we ever spoke of this I would be dead. So for the moment I kept a truce with him I had my distance but I had to keep my respect since we both claim to be from the same gang. A little before I turned 16 I started to realize this gang I was from was going no where. Our mine targets or enemies was within ourselves. It was friends against friends families versus families. Someone put the word out on the street that I was not good enough for the gang, I was then targeted I was getting death threats,be*ten up,chased with guns and knifes. My life was in serious danger but that never stopped me from roaming the streets. At the age 17 I realized this life was no good I then started to become a graffiti tagger. I was was arrested 3 days after being released from a mental hospital for a suicide attempt. I was losing my mind I was lost heavily on the the dr*gs I was on mainly meth and weed. I was caught writing on a wall while having dinner with my family it was the most embarrassing moment of my life. I was taken into custody for 3 days. I was released to my parents with terms and conditions and was also put on house arrest. I was charged 7 days after for a violation the problem this time was that I never left or violated. At that moment I was jailed for 3weeks. After my release I tried going sober but with the friends I had it only lasted and hour after my release. I started using again. One night when walking the streets with a close friend I was under the influence of c*ke, meth and intoxicated a car pulled up to the side of us and 5 people jumped out the care my friend was being attacked. Since I was considered the gang member drop out my life was at risk I had a gun pointed at me and was threatened for my life. I screamed to my friend and said just make a run for it. The moment I had the gun pointed at my face my whole life went blank this was it i thought to myself my life is over. The only thing in my head was my family what are they going to think of me? I dead teenager who wasted his life for dr*gs and violence without proving to them I have really changed. After the person clocking the gun twice I snapped and made a round for it. The guy forgot to clock the gun back. At that moment I felt blessed by this God I never had faith in. I ran my way through streets and houses as I was being chased with a gun and 5 other males. After this was all over I made my way home and decided to lay low for a while. But with this addiction I had It was nearly impossible. A year passed by and seemed like everything was calming down with my situations I was still using but the streets were calm I was 18 and fearless of life. A few weeks after turning 18 years old I ended up with the most beautiful girl in the world. We started dating a few weeks after that I was charged with another case my probation violated me with a graffiti charge with no prof of me doing the crime. I was gone for the night and side released. 3 months passed by fast getting high all the time. One day my Probation Officer stopped by and decided to dr*g test me I failed the test. I was jailed the nest day at my court hearing for two violations and sentenced to a jail facility near a desert. I was gone for the month but within that month my life was turned around. I came out sober and better than ever. Today I stand strong I have been sober for 10 months it is a miracle after 9 years of using dr*gs. I am blessed by God and I am currently still with my girlfriend we have been together for almost 2 years now and we are fully committed to the relationship I am blessed to be alive. I still have fear to walk the streets but with God by my side and the changes I have made I see a bright future ahead of me. I still have that feeling that people are after me but those are the results from the dr*g abuse. I know the word on the streets has changed for my name I don't have as much haters now but I know that there are still a few people out their who seem to not like me but I don't mind all it is people talking behind my back now and I can live with that. I don't have much friends but I don't mind it at all. I try to be discreet and leave out some parts that happened during those years that seem to violent and graphic to speak about but this is basically the run down of me being harassed and bullied for almost 10 years of my life and I thank God each and every day for my existence in this beautiful world and keeping me alive and safe each day. I also want to thank my family,friends and God for leading me to the right path and giving me that extra knowledge that built strength in my heart to keep pushing forward and move on from that lifestyle I once knew. I would also mention if you are being bullied report it!

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